I’m grateful for my mind…whatever is left of it. ?

My memory has been AWFUL lately!  Like….really, really bad.

I’ve had multiple occasions recently where someone will remind me of a conversation we JUST had and I won’t remember it. If it’s with someone I don’t know all that well, I’ll play along and pretend that I remember it even when I don’t.  I’ve always prided myself on being a good listener, so it hurts me a bit to think that others may assume I’m not listening when they tell me something and I don’t remember it.  With my fam and inner circle, they just know that my mind is a sieve lately and it’s no big deal. I know it gets frustrating for them to have to repeat things they just told me, but there’s nothing I can do about it. I go through bouts like this from time to time due to my illnesses…God willing it’ll go back to my normal soon. 

But in general, my mind is all still there and I’m able to make decisions with a clear mind.  I have a friend whose mother is going downhill fast due to Alzheimer’s disease…and I can’t even imagine how heartbreaking that must be to watch your loved one slip away and lose their memory.  Not to mention for the sufferer themselves….how frustrating it must be for them to not remember things when they’ve lived an entire life full of memories.  Then those memories slip away.  I know how frustrated I get…and mine is just silly ‘chronic brain’ (as I call it.)

So I’m grateful for my mind…as flawed as it is, it still works.

I’ve been having some great open discussions lately with a family member who shares differing opinions with me politically.   I like to think that I keep a really open mind when it comes to just about everything…and even with this crazy election, I’ve been respectful and have weighed both sides of issues ad nauseum.  I’m grateful that this family member of mine does as well, and I’ve loved our conversations and am so happy we can converse like this and respect each others’ opinions without getting into arguments.  If only everyone did…

Getting back to this ‘chronic brain’ of mine, as I sit here and write to you about how AWFUL my memory is lately, tonight my daughter and I took Rob out for dinner and a movie for his birthday (Happy Birthday, Manly!).  On our way in the car, for some unknown reason, I got the song “You Ain’t Got a Thing, If You Ain’t Got That Swing” in my head.  Why?  I have no clue.  I haven’t heard that song in years….and when I did hear it…what was it from? (..keep reading……) 

So as is normal for me and much to the chagrin of the poor members of my family, I start singing it.  (Now….my entire family is very musical and my daughter Riley is a very talented singer and even majors in Theatre in college. I….sadly….do NOT have any musical talent.  So believe you me, when I decide to sing, it’s hardly angelic-sounding noises coming out of my mouth)

But anyway…so I start singing…

?Oh you ain’t got a thing, if you ain’t got that swing….doo wop….doo wop….doo rap….doo rap….(Wait!  Why am I singing “doo RAP?”)

I say to Rob….”Manly (my nickname for him which I stole from ‘Little House on the Prairie’)…was that song in a commercial?”  Rob says he has no idea but it’s bugging the crap out of me…

Another thing you should know…I’m known as “Jingle Woman” in my family.  I will be working on the computer not paying attention to what is on tv, a commercial will come on and if it has a jingle I will sing it without even knowing it.  It cracks Rob up.  I am the ‘Queen of Jingles’…FAR superior to the enormous musical talents Rob, Riley and Jake all have.

Okay…back to “doo rap”…

I start thinking….rap?….rap?….wrap?….wait!  Could it be plastic wrap?  Was there ever a jingle for plastic wrap?

I start singing again…and it all falls into place…

?”Oh you ain’t got a thing, if you ain’t got that CLING!”  That’s it!  It MUST  have been a commercial for plastic wrap!

So I use the ol’ Google, and sure enough…

So don’t cry for me, Argentina about my ‘chronic brain’…..I still have a knack for remembering VERY, VERY important information that is oh-so-very useful.  ?

Love & serenity,  Lauren

Lauren has lived with lupus & fibromyalgia for 18 years & is the founder of the FB group, "Attitude of Gratitude with Chronic Pain (AoG.)" Also a recovering alcoholic, Lauren discovered the power of GRATITUDE during her recovery for that as well as in dealing with her chronic illness. In 2016 she embarked on her "Gratitude Project" by writing an essay on one new thing that she was grateful for every day on Facebook for the entire year. It was that project that sparked the website and she's currently writing a book called "Attitude of Gratitude with Chronic Pain" based on how living with the intention of gratitude has changed her life with chronic pain as well as the lives of the thousands of members of AoG. Lauren also sits on the Board of Trustees and is Social Media Coordinator for Chronic Pain Anonymous. #GetYourGratitudeOn


  • Lucia

    YOU CRACK ME UP!!!!! SO funny, girl! I’m known to have days when I’ll “break out in song” when talking with someone! If a comment has some lyrics to a song, out will come the song, regardless if I, or the other, said the comment!

    • Lauren

      So…my daughter, Riley, thinks that I should make jingles my ‘thing.’ know how James Carsden has ‘Carpool Karaoke?’ I’m already working on a post about my “Reese’s Relapse” and I found a bunch of old commercials from the 70’s. Remember when there’s some chick walking around with a jar of peanut butter and she bumps into a dude with chocolate? “Hey! You got your chocolate in my peanut butter!”…you get the drift. I think it COULD be funny.

  • Carmen

    I have a few “chronic brain” family members and friends, so none of this is new to me, lol. I do hope you can get back to normal soon tho. It’s no fun when you can’t remember things. 🙂